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05 June 2013 @ 12:49 am
Love Me Like You Would Those Geeky Stuff You Love So Much  
Title: Love Me Like You Would Those Geeky Stuff You Love So Much weird title is weird
Pairing: KyuMin
Rating: R just to be safe
Genre: romance, fluff, crack
Warning/s: yaoi, language, implied smut
Verse: alternate
Type/Status: One-shot; Complete, 2,655W
Summary: Sungmin knew he should never have expected too much from the younger, knowing that people like Kyuhyun never really changed. It was a gamble he had made, and just like any other game of chance, Sungmin had gone through a lot as a price to pay for his choice.


Sungmin, Kyuhyun thought, was too good to be true. Too kind for his own good. Too pristine, untainted, and certainly, someone who deserved better than him. After all, who was he? Cho Kyuhyun, drunkard extraordinaire, certified playboy – master gamer in all games, may it be Starcraft or that of the heart. Well, he loved science and was truly a geek at heart, but that really didn't account for much as Sungmin was intelligent in his own right. And this was basically why Kyuhyun found himself in awe when Lee Sungmin, in all his shining glory (Kyuhyun never really did figure out why Sungmin seemed to be glowing in his eyes), accepted his confession without so much as batting an eyelash, his really pretty eyelashes, if Kyuhyun might add. It was good while it lasted. Turned out that Sungmin, although quite the goody two shoes that he was believed to be, had a hidden desire for bad guys. What gives?

Kyuhyun was apprehensive at first, thinking that the elder only thought of him as another soul to be saved. He certainly didn’t want to be pitied. And while the sex was all too gratifying, Kyuhyun couldn’t help but feel that something was amiss. The feeling was foreign to him, to say the least. After all, someone like him never did spare a single thought about his partner. Well, at least not until he got together with Sungmin.

He didn't know when the change started but Kyuhyun found himself smiling from ear-to-ear at the most unlikely of times – when he received a random smiley from Sungmin on his phone, when he saw anything pink, when he passed by the vegetable aisle on the supermarket and chanced upon a pumpkin, and a whole lot of things that reminded him of the other. In fact, all things seemed to remind Kyuhyun of Sungmin these days. He didn’t notice that his once sardonic smiles have turned into soft, genuine ones. Kyuhyun knew he was turning into a softie and he knew he had to do something before things got out of hand. Yet, he knew he couldn’t bring himself to end everything just like that. The thought of hurting the only person he possibly loved more than himself was too much to bear even for the cold-hearted Cho Kyuhyun.

Then again, Kyuhyun should have taken the quote: “Be careful what you wish for because you might just get it,” a little more seriously. It all came to him one afternoon when he went out of gym class and was assaulted altogether by Victoria, an ex of his who never really understood the concept of a break-up. It just so happened that Sungmin came out of the restroom at the same time and Kyuhyun couldn’t do anything more than widen his eyes as Victoria blatantly kissed him in front of Sungmin.

The hurt and betrayal that flashed all over Sungmin’s face was enough for Kyuhyun to push Victoria away, feeling as if his very own heart was stabbed when he realized that he was the cause of Sungmin’s pain. But before he could even move, Sungmin had already ran away and that’s when Kyuhyun decided that he never wanted to see that look on Sungmin’s face ever again – he never wanted to hurt him again. Sungmin deserved so much better, which is why Kyuhyun decided to drop everything that they had. He never apologized no matter how sorry he was despite not being at fault. The fact that he was the root of Sungmin’s anguish was enough for Kyuhyun to decide that he needed to stay out of Sungmin’s life for good.

Sungmin had been calling him since that day a month ago and Kyuhyun all but let it fall into voicemail. The last thing he needed was to hear Sungmin’s voice and realize how much he yearned for the man that he loves. Needless to say, Kyuhyun had been miserable since then but he figured he was okay hurting by himself if that would mean that Sungmin would get better. Sungmin will eventually move on and realize how much of a jerk Kyuhyun really was and he’d be happy. Never mind that Kyuhyun will never find happiness ever again for he knew it slipped his grasp the moment he chose to let Sungmin go.

A knock on the door jolted Kyuhyun from his reveries and he all but dragged himself to open his door, only to freeze in shock when he saw the man who had been haunting his thoughts all this time, staring back at him with expectant eyes.

“Woah. You look like shit. I thought I was the one who got dumped?” Sungmin teased, an uncertain smile on his features.

“Yeah? For the record, I didn't really dump you and well, you have always been the good-looking one between the two of us. I don’t think anyone breaking up with you could ever change that,” Kyuhyun said as he opened the door wider, gesturing for Sungmin to come in.

Kyuhyun figured there was no point in eluding the matter further. This conversation had been long overdue. If this was the closure they needed, then so be it.

“Kyu, look. Vic told me the truth. She said she was sorry for what she did and that it wasn’t your fault. I now know you didn’t…” Sungmin wasn’t even able to finish when Kyuhyun cut him.

“But I did. It was a choice I made, Min,” Kyuhyun snapped as he let out a sardonic laugh. “Once a playboy, always a playboy, right?

“I… But you’ve changed, Kyu. I know you have,” Sungmin pleaded with teary eyes, holding on to Kyuhyun’s arm in hopes of changing the younger’s mind. “Please don’t do this to me, Kyu. Please.”

“Don’t do what, Min!?” Kyuhyun spat as he jerked Sungmin’s hands off his arm. It pained him to see how Sungmin looked like he had been slapped by his gesture but he figured it was all for the best. The meaner he was to Sungmin, the better. Sungmin would hate him faster that way. He stood up from the couch and turned his back on Sungmin’s frail form, not able to handle seeing the other so vulnerable like that. He took a deep breath to keep himself from sobbing before he continued: “Can’t you see? I’m not good for you. I’d only hurt you. Why would you want that, huh?

Sungmin’s feelings broke like a dam upon hearing Kyuhyun’s words. He stood from the couch himself and screamed at Kyuhyun’s back like how he wanted to that day he caught the other kissing another person.

“You think I want this!? Being hurt everyday, feeling like my heart is getting ripped out of my chest every single time you decide to be a dick and make a fool out of me. Of course I don’t fucking want this, Kyu! But guess what? My stubborn heart just had to beat for someone as heartless as you! So, you think I want this? You’re fucking wrong because I never asked for this. I never wanted you to begin with.” Sungmin’s chest was already heaving at his exertion yet Kyuhyun didn’t even spare him a single glance, the younger’s back still facing him as he poured his heart out. And just like that, the anger that bubbled within him seemed to die down in a snap, only to be replaced by a sinking feeling of resignation as he realized that his love was never enough to hold their relationship since the beginning.

Relationships were a two-way system and Sungmin had been too much of a fool to believe that he could love for the both of them. He was willing to sacrifice himself to fill in the gap on Kyuhyun’s part even when he knew he was fighting a lost cause. Sungmin knew he should never have expected too much from the younger, knowing that people like Kyuhyun never really changed. It was a gamble he had made, and just like any other game of chance, Sungmin had gone through a lot as a price to pay for his choice.

With slumped shoulders, Sungmin dragged himself to the door and moved to turn the knob, but not before whispering the words he knew he should have told Kyuhyun long before their relationship got rocky, making sure his voice was just audible enough for the younger to hear them. “I don’t want you, Kyu. I need you. I need you because I love you. God knows I wish I didn’t, but I do.”

And just like that, Kyuhyun allowed himself to crumble, the hurt and the pain and all the emotions he bottled within himself all this time coming out in waves as he sobbed into his hands and fell onto his knees, wanting nothing more than to cure all the wounds and hurt he had inflicted on Sungmin. He wanted to hug him so bad but he knew he couldn’t. That would only make things worse. He might never ever want to let go once he did so and that would be bad for the both of them. He wanted to stay out of Sungmin’s life and all he did was to will for Sungmin to just go away and leave him to wallow in his misery at the loss of a love he didn’t deserve.

What he did not expect though was to feel the warmth he had been missing for the longest time envelop him in a cocoon of safety, Sungmin cradling him in his arms as they sobbed in unison. He didn’t even hear Sungmin leave the door to walk towards him. All he was aware of is the feeling of Sungmin’s affectionate embrace. The comfort the other’s warmth brought him was scary, to say the least. The effect it had on him was instantaneous. It baffled him how one person could impact him that much when he had been the one impacting other peoples’ lives all this time.

“I’m scared, Min,” Kyuhyun sobbed into Sungmin’s chest, the latter rocking them back and forth in an attempt to calm the former.

Sungmin hugged Kyuhyun closer to him and whispered words of comfort to his ear: “Ssshh. We’re all scared, Kyu. Who wouldn’t be when you decide to entrust your most vital organ to another person who might break it anytime they please and you just let them anyway because you love them that much.”

“I would never break your balls, Min!” Kyuhyu attempted at a joke to make things lighter, only to let out an unmanly squeak when Sungmin all but jabbed him on his stomach.

“As I was saying before I was oh-so-rudely interrupted by a comedienne-wannabe, it’s perfectly normal to feel scared when your emotions are at stake. God knows how confused I was when I agreed to date you. I knew you were bad news the moment I laid eyes on you but I still fell anyway. I was scared of getting hurt but I got over the fear when I accepted my feelings for you.” Sungmin had a serene smile on his face as he brushed Kyuhyun’s bangs off his face, not unlike a mother cooing at her child but it was a welcome gesture on Kyuhyun’s part.

“But why, Min? Why would you place yourself in such a vulnerable state like that?” Kyuhyun whispered just as softly, knowing that the answer was something he discovered for himself the moment he decided to care for Sungmin.

Sungmin indulged him with a sweet smile before jabbing his index finger on Kyuhyun’s left chest, giggling a little as the younger rubbed the sore spot before he continued: “We all get hurt in love. It’s just a matter of finding that one person who is worth all the pain. And I’m quite sure I found that in you, Kyu.”

Kyuhyun could feel his heart swell upon hearing Sungmin’s words. He knew he didn’t deserve Sungmin one bit yet the other chose to be with him and who was he to deny him that? Funny how he even thought of driving the other away because of his insecurities. Kyuhyun was just thankful that Sungmin chose to hold on for the both of them when he could not. He hugged Sungmin as hard as he could to express his gratitude, promising himself that he would compensate for the wrong things he had done in the past.

“You’re so sweet, Min. Like a fluffy marshmallow,” And of course, Kyuhyun being Kyuhyun just had to ruin the moment like that.

“Are you saying I’m fat!?” Sungmin shrieked indignantly. He loved marshmallows, but did Kyuhyun really have to add “fluffy” as a modifier!?

“I said fluffy, Min. It’s different from… Ow! Ow. Stop it!” Kyuhyun squeaked as Sungmin threw him small punches, hugging the elder as a last resort to stop himself from hitting Kyuhyun.

“I’m changing my mind. I don’t think you’re worth getting hurt for anymore. After all I’ve been through for you, one would think the least you can do is to keep your thoughts about how fat my ass is to yourself,” Sungmin pouted as he placed his arms across his chest, glaring at Kyuhyun as best as he could.

“But I love your voluptuous ass, Min!” Kyuhyun tried to redeem himself. Wrong move.

“That’s it! You’re definitely not the one for me. I’m outta here,” Sungmin hurriedly stood up to leave, not being able to do so as Kyuhyun clung to his legs for dear life.

“I’m kidding, Min! I’m kidding. Geez, I love all of you, okay!? Even if you get fluffier or skinnier or whatever form you may assume,” Kyuhyun spluttered desperately, digging his fingernails into Sungmin’s thighs as the elder struggled to free himself from his claws.

“I’m not one of those greenhouse gases you love so much, Kyu. I cannot transform phases. And I’m definitely not an element you can experiment with. Get off me!” Sungmin kicked the younger off once more, finally succeeding at dislodging the younger from his leg when the younger all but stood up in a jiffy and chose to cling onto his back instead. Just great.

“I know, Min. I love you more than those greenhouse gases. I would even give up Chemistry if that’s what you want. I would burn my life-size periodic table of elements if need be. And you know I could never experiment using you. You’re too precious for that,” Kyuhyun muttered into Sungmin’s neck as he back-hugged the elder, his breath sending tingles on Sungmin’s spine.

“You sure about that?” Sungmin whispered just as breathlessly, knowing how much Kyuhyun loved Chemistry. He turned around to face Kyuhyun, leaning their foreheads together as they relished in the feeling of each other’s arms.

“Affirmative,” Kyuhyun nodded, only to yelp when Sungmin all but crashed their lips together in a searing kiss. How that escalated that quickly, Kyuhyun didn’t know. All he was aware of was the feeling of Sungmin’s hands all over his body, the elder peeling every article of clothing he could get his hands on without breaking their kiss.

Kyuhyun’s mind exploded when Sungmin all but pushed him down on the couch, the elder discarding his own clothes before straddling him and grinding their crotches together.

“Well, I hope you have nothing against Anatomy then. There’s this experiment I’ve been wanting to do with you for the longest time but you just had to be such a girl and wait for a month to apologize,” Sungmin purred onto Kyuhyun’s neck as he continued to rub their pelvises together, punctuating each word with an open-mouthed kiss as he went south before taking Kyuhyun’s underwear off using his teeth.

And really, Kyuhyun couldn’t emphasize more how Sungmin is too good for him, so who was he to deny Sungmin of his… um, requests. He couldn’t say no even if he wanted to, not that he wants to. Especially not when Sungmin’s tongue was doing wonders like that. Fuck Chemistry, Kyuhyun is so gonna shift to Biology next semester.


P.S. Look what I found in my notebook! I think I wrote this in one of those boring sessions in Human Rights class last summer. Oopsie. ^^
P.S.S. Unbeta'd. My english is getting worse by the moment. SorryT^T
P.S.S.S. Added in the Chemistry part in there because of that fan account wherein Kyuhyun got flustered when his classmate poured HCl on his/her hands. I could just imagine his eyes widen as he shouts: "HYDROCHLORIC ACID! HYDROCHLORIC ACID! LOLOLOL WHAT TO DO WITH YOU YOU GEEKY BOIII ;~;
P.S.S.S.S. I would love to study Anatomy and Physiology with KyuMin. *winks*
P.S.S.S.S.S. Still selling SJ stuff HERE
P.S.S.S.S.S.S. I get back to university Monday so I guess this will be my last fic for yet another loooong time. Toodles!^^
Current Location: IN KYUHYUN'S MOUTH
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: EXO - Wolf
Polinsweetsmirk137 on June 4th, 2013 05:07 pm (UTC)


YES I AM SHOUTING but i'm calm now. not in capslock anymore
sujuflh on June 4th, 2013 08:41 pm (UTC)
yayyyyy <3

see the fanaccount you're talking about, when is it from? I can't find it >_
geureiseugeureiseu on June 4th, 2013 10:40 pm (UTC)
I read this random tweet awhile ago...

"Someone who really loves you:

1) Sees what a mess you can be.
2) How moody you can get
3) How hard you are to handle

But still wants you."

...then I saw your story. ^^

Kyuhyun just have to always be the pain on Sungmin's ass. (literally and in all other aspects). Kyu, you don't deserve Min... but he wants you... so just be grateful and take care of him from now on.
blurzpooblurzpoo on June 5th, 2013 02:21 am (UTC)
Geeky Kyu <3333

Its really nice that Min is the adorable, kind and understanding boyfriend with a sexy ass unlike Kyu who simply holes himself up....

Love this <3
aimaw: feeling buzzedaimaw on June 5th, 2013 03:43 am (UTC)
The “I would never break your balls" by Kyuhyun is hilarious!!! This is a good read~
messypautatomessypautato on June 5th, 2013 01:22 pm (UTC)
"Well, I hope you have nothing against Anatomy then. There’s this experiment I’ve been wanting to do with you for the longest time but you just had to be such a girl and wait for a month to apologize,”

I wouldn't mind adding KyuMin in my syllabus in AnaPhy AHAHAHAHAA

And yah! Unnie! Watteryoutalking about your english is getting worse?! No, it's not! You're doing great!! TT^TT /rolls/
Ayenayeengie on June 5th, 2013 02:04 pm (UTC)
KatKatpaperhunter on June 5th, 2013 02:32 pm (UTC)

simbasheartsimbasheart on June 5th, 2013 03:48 pm (UTC)
otl kyuhyun ur a jerk!!! great thing min loves u XDD
eeep i lurve kyumin and anatomy :D :D :D lol

thank u so much for still linking me ur fics!! i love it~!!!

abitabieabitabie on June 6th, 2013 02:18 am (UTC)
sungmin's voluptuous ass is cute xD
fluffy marshmallowwww~

"i love you more than those greenhouse gases" ROMANTIC CHO, YOU GEEK!

hahaha this is cute aila :))) you should rummage your notes more often, see if there are hidden forgotten fics between those pages! share us the awesomeeee :)

minnbuin8611minnbuin8611 on June 6th, 2013 02:10 pm (UTC)
you liar! you said you will write again after one year ㅠㅠㅠ (and why i even believe you lol)
and this is soooooooo sweet~
kyu became such a brat but sweet also amd sungmin defending his love ㅠㅠ♥
their love will last long forever^^

thankyou aila~~ :D
priskittypriskitty on June 6th, 2013 03:26 pm (UTC)
Aila, the awesome writer. Thanks for mentioning me in twitter about this btw cause I love this story to pieces.
This brought me back to life since I have no spirit left due to working on day off *today was supposed to be national holiday in my country but here I am in another city, working until late night (sobs)* ---> sorry for the randomness

Kyu sure is a pain in the ass and Min is just forever being patient and understanding and oh I just wanna hug Min tightly.

and I'm geeky like Kyu cause I love Chemistry and got a medal from school for it. lalala.

Sorry for being so random in commenting. Lately I cannot arrange my thoughts properly. haha. stress perhaps?

Thanks for the lovely story.
kyussikyussi on June 7th, 2013 01:03 pm (UTC)
So kyute!! Hehe. Geek boy being stupid when he's in love.
Qvelvetsilkminqvelvetsilkmin on June 7th, 2013 03:08 pm (UTC)
Anatomy with kyumin /smirks
Boy don't be that insecure, it's never all pink right? ^^
damnbunny123damnbunny123 on June 30th, 2013 03:46 am (UTC)
unnie..! TYRA MISSES YOU!!

T-T *sobbing mess*

I love this...